Good Love
Good Love
Looking back on the last two years, I’ve reflected on the years 2010 and 2011. The events that took place were meant to be, yet they brought hurtful memories that left scars in my soul. I was always taught to respect the power of love and to remember to take each experience and learn from it. All experiences help to shape and mold you. I’ve learned through many friendships, no matter how strong or weak, how much an individual I was. Each situation was masked depending on the issue at hand. Through these avenues, I’ve gained knowledge with a unique power that has helped to define the new me for 2012. When you look back on your life, you may see things that should or shouldn’t have happened in your life, but you understand things have a purpose. I don’t look at my bad relationships as a blame game; however, I am grateful that those people are gone from my life and I wish them much success. There is a peace and a soulful calm that covers my life now. I have finally found the peace that I’ve prayed for through God. Instead of looking for a love to care for me, caress me, secure me, or to make me happy, I’ve found a good love within me. Ironically, I found this love through a 20 year romance that never happened until now. It’s funny how time has a way of catching up with you with someone you would never have guessed that would bring out the best in you. Just when I swore off love for myself, God sent one that was true and dear to me. Even after the last terrible relationship, he stayed and waited and continuously pursued me with good love. Nothing that was temporary or lustful. Women seem to think after bad relationships there will be more bad ones but God will restore hope and faith when you understand you are not in control. Many women think they control their own destiny just by waving a wand but it’s more to it than that. We have to put in the work to plant the rights seeds to make things flourish in the future. All of us go through a trail in our lives where we are confused and dumbfounded, but we either learn or stay in the storm on our own. Through my learning, I’ve found so much inner strength and endurance that I thought I never had. I look back over some things and I can’t understand how I made it over. I truly can’t see how anyone could have made it through. So then I question myself and ask am I that special that God spared me through? Why? What made me any different from the 16 year old that died of cancer or the 28 year old that died of a gun shot wound? Absolutely nothing. God has his own time to give you peace, love, and joy. He instills happiness to give you hope in your faith. Things will happen in love that will hurt or make you happy but you have to be willing to trust God in it all. So before you rip and run to take care of things you can’t control. Remember the good love that God has given you and embrace it, nurture it, and let God manifest it in your soul to grow a new you. I love the new me and I trust it. Until we next time “love yourself and you’ll find love all around you”- Val Watts
